I kinda wish I didn’t live in the part of South Florida that’s farthest away from any cool clubs.  I couldn’t even tell you the name of the club closest to where I live.  I love progressive house and trance music, and tonight I was on Napster listening to various things including Tiesto.  Makes me want to go to a club.  I just hate the way going to a club involves driving so far, struggling with parking, waiting in line, and then going to a place that’s overcrowded.  Also, I don’t drink and I don’t like the meat market aspect.  At one point I did like at least the meat market part, but now I feel old and tired.  And I feel not that available.

One of my favorite clubs a few years ago was a beautiful Eastern inspired paradise, abounding with Buddhist and Hindu statues and paper lanterns.  I understand it is now a neon hell.  For those of you familiar with Miami, I won’t name names, but I’m sure you can guess.  If I were going to go out, I’d have to find a new place.

Most of my friends are not the clubbing type, but my best guy friend (other than Manchester) definitely likes going out.  I think part of the reason that I never go out is because I don’t want to go alone, and I never plan in advance to go out with friends.  I am going to make it one of my goals to go out to a club again.  Just on Friday one of my clients who’s in his 30s was saying how young I am, but I imagine he goes out far more than I do.  I want to remember the feeling of having girlfriends who like going out.  The problem is when I think of the type of girls who frequent clubs, I’m reminded that they are the type of girls I really don’t like.  I feel really weird tonight.  I feel very old.  I don’t want to feel restless and tired anymore.